My plans for our future was definitely not like I originally planned. I saw myself graduating from college, then teaching school and raising our sons. We did that part easily and then my accident and my following surgeries happened and everything was changed. My husband and I planned to continue traveling when we could go see the United States. We have enjoyed traveling to different places. My oldest son has enjoyed traveling himself and has caught the seeking an adventure bug from us. He even traveled to Asian countries. He was so excited to see different cultures from ours. It makes you appreciate where we live and our freedoms.

Now I just have to be satisfied with staying home bound most of the time. On my walker is a Grumpy cat that I thought was too cute. I looked up that breed on the Internet. This is the way the bred always looks. I think it is for me when I just want to be grumpy about everything for a short while of course. No one wants to be around someone who is always grumpy.

I am very angry about where I am in this time of my life. I enjoy retirement, but I wanted to be able to romp with my future grandkids. I would also love to act silly more often like I used to be. I want to feel hopeful about my future, but I do not.

It is time to give myself a kick in the pants, and deal with it and make the best of my life. Time to regret is over!