How do I get beyond my disabilities to really relate to others like I did before? This is a question I ask myself often. I am not sure of the answer though, but I will keep pondering it in my mind. I was told that I should be in the moment fully and really listen to others speak. I am trying to remember to do this. My memory loss makes it difficult to remember future events so I use my calendar daily. At times, it is very difficult for me not to mourn my past life before my surgeries.

How do I enjoy life thoroughly? I have been told to treat the loss like a grieving process and just do my best each day. Life is too precious so I don’t want to take anything for granted. That is my goal anyway.

Sometimes life events get in the way and I need to focus on it fully. My husband I remember the last dinner that my other father, Dalton who recently died from a stroke during his cancer surgery and as well as other complications. Dalton just loved my husband’s fajitas before he had that dreaded cancer surgery. He was so happy to eat his favorite meal. He was anxious but hopeful about his upcoming surgery. That is when you would love to go back in time.

Surgeries haven’t been kind to my family. They have caused life changes so I always advise people to proceed with caution.